On a Ranting Mode

Posted: August 30, 2011 in Uncategorized

Apparently, I push people’s buttons without me knowing. I’m quite certain I never wronged them.

I get annoyed at people for no apparent reason. And that’s something I probably can’t avoid. So I don’t actually mind if people do not like me or do not want to deal with me. But to judge my worth, qualification, and competence by merely looking at me and observing my actions is just way too much of a professional’s quality. I have expected people to be wiser than that. Well, irrationality knows no profession and age. You can be old and a professional and still thinks like a savage.

To the person who has assumed the responsibility of estimating my worth as a professional:

We’ve shared nothing more than decent smiles, and hi’s and hello’s, and casual talks about work related matters. I wonder how you’ve arrived at a firm idea that i’m not fit to continue with what I have started. First, I’m not one of your subordinates so you don’t know how I perform and so you’re not as well qualified to desperately announce your unsolicited opinions about me in a supposedly formal and professional discourse. Again, you’re not my superior, so your little concern regarding how I act should have been between the two of us. I would have appreciated it had there been an effort to at least make me realize that there’s something wrong with the way I deal with my job. I don’t remember you reminding me about what I should not do or how to PROPERLY act and be as prim and proper as you. Talking to the person in a closed-door room is probably a little hard for you to do, so you convicted me with your pristine homophobic morality around your associates. Slap me with solid reasons why I should not continue, then I will give in to your whims and caprices. I will withdraw my application. But do not pronounce my ineligibility when all you have is a self-proclaimed truth.It made me realize that you appraise a person based on his personality and not on his character. I don’t assume the character of an angel. i have my share of flaws, so to speak. But I don’t lurk around and prey on innocent individuals, if that’s what you’re afraid of. There are those whose actions have blatantly crossed the line of professionalism and they’ve been in the institution way too long. But I wonder why you have not taken action against them. Be that as it may, I wish you wisdom and peace of mind.

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Pandemonium

Posted: August 30, 2011 in Uncategorized

It might be the hot weather and the exhaustion. It might be the new things that are happening and will still happen. All I know is that something is taking its toll. Some things come and go and some things just never do.It’s not the first time and never will be the last time. The recurrence of impediments and the domino effect of it spoils the will to take a step further and farther. But all of these could just be a result of over thinking. just a state of mind.  So there’s no better way but to just let these things slide. “,)

I was throwing away old stuff, mostly college papers, when I stumbled upon a reflection paper I had written for my Ethics class four years ago. My topic was about character education. Some of the lines I have written are quotable. Props to myself. naks! But the question is, have I practiced these ideas in my three years of teaching? I can’t deny the idea that there is a disparity between theory and practice. I was not a teacher, then. I had ideal visions. Have these visions been stomped by practicality and reality? I hope not.

August 01, 2007

“Modeling is the simplest way to uphold character education. While I am not suggesting that teachers be immaculate, they should somehow exemplify upright behavior. One cannot instill right conduct to anyone if he himself does not possess it.”

Am I modeling right conduct to my students? I hope and I believe so.

“It is also necessary that teachers establish good student-relationship. Some students like being tapped on their shoulders for a task well done or for a question well answered. A child discouraged by academic, athletic, and artistic failure often needs encouragements to ward off self-pity.”

This was the wannabe psychologist in me. haha… But I like these lines so much. I think I have been consistent in practicing this idea.

“Academic discussions may be swept away tomorrow. But their learned values will be instilled to them for good. Moral influences outlast academic learning. As teachers and educators, we can leave our students a legacy that will remain constant throughout their lives. “

winner na concluding statements ito! hehe.. sige.. I will always keep this in mind.

The Starting Line

Posted: August 30, 2011 in Uncategorized

The initial point is always the hardest. Getting started seems to be the most difficult thing to do. Aside from the serious planning that needs to be done in order to do the whole thing right, there are obstacle courses one has to go through-doubt, laziness, low self-esteem, and the like. Nevertheless, things must be done in its most magnanimous way.There are no free rides.There are no shortcuts.There are no detours.There’s only one main road ahead.Come hell or high water, you have to pass through the starting point in order to reach the end.

It takes a great amount of determination to set your foot on the starting line without losing your focus, especially if the other end is not visible and seems impossible to reach. And to make things worse, it is so tempting to just settle for things that are within one’s reach making it difficult to take further steps.

Indeed, success is only for the spirited. And I’d be damned if I don’t step on that starting line!

Ranting away…

Posted: April 22, 2011 in Uncategorized

On my facebook note, I typed a couple of sentences attempting to rant about something totally insignificant, but i hit the back space button real fast. Ranting online is something i haven’t done in quite a while. I think I have grown up (I hope?).It feels good to bring your grievances out through a note or through a status. But at the end of the day, you’d realize none of these strings of words would make you the “good” guy as you put a person to a mock trial making that hell of a note your courtroom, you being the judge. The truth of the matter is, no one gives a damn about your grievances about other people. Others have their own problems with people, too, for all we know. And it’s ridiculous how we pronounce our grudges about a specific person publicly as if all our facebook friends were involved in it. Can you just type it all out in a private messasge box instead of appealing to sympathies of people who do not actually have any idea who the heck you are referring to. It’s not bad to wallow on your hurt ego, but to lambaste one’s reputation ONLINE goes straight down the dignity line. I don’t know what triggers this. It’s just a stream of thought. And what’s ironic about this is that i actually have a few people in my mind as i type this note. Another irony, it’s funny how i was trying not to rant out in the beginnning but i ended up doing so, anyway! REALLY IRONIC!

On the Absurd

Posted: April 22, 2011 in Uncategorized

The pursuit of essence is what keeps us going. Every essential thing that we do is dictated by our “central purpose”. No one lives life just for the moment. Everyone looks forward to the future.  Ask a child what he wants to be when he grows up and he’ll give you an automatic response- just a valid proof that at any stage in our life, we somehow dream to  be someone worthy of the gift of life and someone who is functional to the self and to the society as well. One who doesn’t have dreams and goals is capable of self-destruction and just drifts away in the course of life. This is a phase i have recurrently experienced at times. I am humble enough to admit that i am not yet fully well-rounded in every aspect and that i still have a lot of things to learn for me to become the person i have always wanted to become. It’s hard to hold on to my principles- I am barely hanging on, to say the least. but that’s the best thing i can do at the moment, To just hold on- because if i let go of these ideals, then I’d be one of those whose characters i strongly despise. Life is always a struggle, but life is not life without difficulties.

I remember Ayn Rand’s powerful words “Living life is not avoiding death”. These words have somehow haunted the hell out of me for years. I wouldn’t want to risk my life over anything else. I wouldn’t want to do something that would harm me. I’m afraid of problems, I’m afraid of responsibilities, I’m afraid to die. and i know this is something detrimental to the self.  how lame can life get when one gets stuck in a vacuum- completely static and afraid to take further steps to achieve progress. The demise of the body is not the exact opposite of life. Dying and living is one continuum. Physical death is not to be feared of.  Let me quote what I have written about the juxtaposition of life and death months ago.

“Death would be satisfying only when life had been fulfilling. The demise of the body is one’s sweetest reward for the exhaustion of human potentials to pursue essence. Life had been wonderful, and death is rewarding. A man who dies happily speaks volume of his worth.”

“Death would be painful only when life had been hollow. The demise of the body is one’s ultimate reminder of his failure to be happy in his life. Life had been bitter, and death is a downfall. A man who dies bitterly speaks volume of his futility.”

Living life goes beyond whims and vanity. There’s pleasure in indulging in any tangible phenomena like eating delicious food, buying fancy clothes, facebooking, sex, etc. But then again, at the end of the day, one would be haunted of the thought as to how these fleeting pleasures bring about progress in the formation of the “ideal man”. Absurdity is a phase I am encountering right now. And I’ll be damned if I let myself get stuck in this slump. I’ll my live my life the way it should be even it costs my life. This is the first step i guess. Its time to be a “man”.

Thinking Aloud: On Negativity

by Jordan Gaviran Habbiling on Saturday, 26 February 2011 at 17:57

Maximum tolerance is the name of the game. When you can’t stand something but you can’t do anything about it as well, then you better strengthen your tolerance level and never put your guards down. When all means are exhausted just to make amends but to no avail, then you’ll be damned if you let external negativity get to your system. The best thing to do is to ignore and let things slip without losing your cool. Aggression may just worsen the situation. Unpleasantness may get in the way here and there, but at the end of the day, it’s how you handle situations that counts. You may either reciprocate your adversaries’ barbarism or face them with grace and poise.

 

It’s not possible to like everybody, nor is it possible to please everybody. But when spitefulness strikes and is aimed at you, put on your shield but never attempt to strike back. There are a lot of things to think about in life, and getting even is not worth the time. Retribution has its own hand, and nature will find its way to put things and people to their places. Just smile heartily and the goodness will get reciprocated.

 

Cheers, people! Life is good.